Sooo…sophomore year at Wash U has ended. I can’t believe it’s already over; too many things to say, to think, to express. With this passing year, I’m now halfway done with my college career. Two years gone, two years to go. It’s so insane how quickly time is flying.
I still feel blessed to have everything that I do; my friends, my dancing, my opportunities. I didn’t make full use of them this last year, and I truly hope that I can change that. In retrospect, my friend group really remained unchanged; I only really made two, maybe three, new friends. But that’s ok, because my current friend group is awesome.
I fly back to California in 7 hours. As I sit here writing this, both of my remaining suitemates are sleeping, and I (not intending to sleep), have been overcome with some inexplicable sense of loneliness. I don’t know why, but I suddenly feel so alone, in the quiet, with nothing but the sound of my own typing. I always get this sentimental feeling at the end of the year; some profound sadness that another year has passed by. I can’t really describe it, but it never goes away.
I realized today that I missed out on so many good byes. Friends, mentors, teachers (not professors, but others my age who taught me so much)…I may never get to see them again in my life, and my last sight of them was just a simple wave goodbye, like I’ll see them again next year, no problem.
GAH, why am I suddenly so sentimental and crap…blah. Time to finish packing the last remaining bits of my crap.
It’s been awesome, yet again St. Louis. Thanks, for the bipolar as fck weather, near-tear inducing midterms (QQ) and amazing memories. I may hate you as St. Louis, but I can’t imagine another place to be going to school